Laura Harley

Well, my interview on “Your Mac Life” has been pushed to next week (Wednesday, February 6th, at 9:20pm Eastern US time). It turns out that, like me, the hosts got sick and so they are behind on their schedule. And since I still sound like a little frog with a big cough is living in my throat, I am feeling very relieved!

It worked out quite well.

As much of a bummer as it can be to be sick, I’ve actually been feeling thankful for getting sick when I did. In an earlier post I’d mentioned that I’m working on coming from a more peaceful inner place more of the time. I came down with this flu thing (which mainly just makes you very tired and cough a lot) a couple days after making that promise to myself. Because the new path was fresh in my mind, I found myself thinking about it a lot as I rested. If I had just gone rushing back into my normal life after having that realization, I think I wouldn’t have been able to keep my learning going and continued to be as committed to it. Being sick MAKES you stay slowed down and more peaceful, whether you want to or not.

And I’ve noticed that I’ve been able to approach being sick in a different way this time. Usually when I get sick, I find myself sort of railing and struggling against it. I find myself thinking “I cannot be sick! I have way too much to do!” and then I spend most of my time “resting” in a very unrestful mental state. This time is a little different. I don’t have any less to do, in fact I have more than usual to do, but I’m finding that I’m able to just go with the flow more. There is nothing I can do to “force” myself to be better. I just need to take care of myself and let it takes its course.

And how about this for a revelation: as long as I have to rest more than usual, how about I actually let myself ENJOY it??!! So, that’s just what I’ve been doing. Instead of worrying, I’ve been reminding myself that it will all work out fine. Instead of going through my mental “to-do” list while lying on the couch watching TV, I’ve been letting myself rest and enjoy some of the shows I’ve seen (usually they are on the Food Network—I LOVE cooking shows!). It feels good and it probably will lead to me getting better sooner.

I still can’t sing, but I have been practicing piano in between working on my laptop and croaking my way through phone meetings. It feels great to get my hands back on the keys! Looking forward to being totally well so I can sing and exercise and get back to more of what I love. One day at a time…

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